Category Archives: Morocco

All that glitters

I got given presents today. I wasn’t expecting it at all, which made it much harder to do the right thing and insist on paying, or refuse. I got a bracelet, which is cute and wasn’t expensive so I didn’t resist, and then a necklace, which until the last second I though I was trying on for someone else. Then suddenly we were out the shop and I was informed it was another present. They are lovely though.

All this has made it dramatically harder though, to ask if I can stay here for a month in summer. I already feel a little like I am living off of charity, and it seems really cheeky. But it also seems much more intelligent to spend my time with people who I am comfortable with, know, and can learn from, than spending my time trying to find an apartment I can have on a one-month lease.
Or crashing on someone’s sofa.

Jillian Michaels is not impressed with my slacking

Today I am in Rabat. Due to having class at 8 and then travelling after lunch, it was all I could manage to squeeze a shower in, let alone a round of Jillian.

Now she hates me. I can feel her eyes burning into my soul.

Even though, since I purposefully did 2 sets yesterday, I won’t actually be behind until tomorrow. And since I am typing this, I have my laptop, and can therefore do it tomorrow morning should I so choose. I doubt I will though. I will be having too much fun sleeping properly.

Night guys x

Missing you

Oh England. Today I’m homesick for you.

I had an alright morning, and a lovely lunch with some friends, which I went and did quite spontaneously. But come 3pm, I was leaving to come home, and it was on the taxi journey that I realised something.

I’m homesick.
These are the main things and people I miss.

– My family
– The Boy
– Being spontaneous
– Going out with my friends
– Cooking for myself
– Central heating
– Hugs
– All my friends
– Being comfortable with walking in the dark
– Choosing what to do with my own time
– BBC iplayer
– Normal dinnertimes
– Proper desks
– Carpet
– Driving
– Being cooked pizza for dinner
– Always having someone around

Don’t get me wrong, I love it here, and I have a wonderful host family. But everyone misses their home comforts sometime, and today is my day.

My First Time

Yesterday I walked home in the dark for the first time since I’ve been here.

I didn’t plan to, it was light when school finished at 6. Somewhere, something in my brain clicked to thinking ‘Oh no, dark does not follow light. It is light and always shall be’
That part of my brain lies. It got dark almost as soon as I’d got myself onto the nice empty road which I walk up. During the day it’s full of cars, but at night it miraculously goes dead. I had to content myself with singing ‘Don’t Cry For Me Argentina’ in the hopes it would put any potential muggers off the mad woman. I was relieved to get onto the well-lit Boulevard.

Also, I become a fine piece of woman at night. Maybe it’s because the men can no longer see my hideous face, but I get much more bother, walking the exact same route that I walk daily, wearing the exact same thing. It’s bizarre. But then that’s Morocco for you.

I have once again been given ridiculous amounts of homework, in a vain attempt to catch up to where we need to be. So I will leave you with this comment.

“You didn’t think I was going to talk about my first time did you? Are you kidding? My Mum reads this”

The Early Bird Catches the Taxi

I awoke at 7.05 this morning, which is a little late. But I knew that I had a whole heap of washing up to do, so I got right on, dressed and washed quickly, and then on to the dishes.

Unfortunately I was a little more leisurely than I expected, and so I rushed to get out of the house for 7.35.

Let me give you some backstory. All last term, I did the washing up after dinner each night, so if I woke up at 7 I  could have a nice chilled waking up, and make it out to get my taxi by 7.30. This term, since we started with exams, I tried to get early nights, which lead to the washing in the morning habit. Since I also have changed so I don’t shower in the mornings, this has been fine, but for the last few days, I’ve had a different problem.

Taxis.

Yesterday I waited almost half an hour for one, and then it wouldn’t take me all the way to school. So today I got out of the house with plenty of time to spare. And instantly found a taxi, right outside my door, who actually beeped me. And then was lovely, and nice and took me right to school and charged me less than usual.

So now I am sitting alone at school, since I’ve made it here ridiculously early.

Have a nice Tuesday

Forward Planning

Anyone else out there a planning nazi? I know I am, having discovered this earlier while talking to The Boy about our mutual inability to make effective plans.

I realised, actually, I make pretty good plans. Quite often they don’t happen, or they change halfway through, or before they’ve even started, but who cares? Plans don’t have to be adhered to, but it’s nice to have a general idea of the way your life is going.

On a large scale like MY WORKING CAREER I have no plans, but that’s not through lack of trying. It’s just that I don’t really have a clue what I want to do, and even if I do, it’s violently different from what I wanted a year ago. I make plans, like my plan to do work experience in the summer. And I then follow through with those plans, which is why I am doing work experience in the summer. But I have no idea if this plan is going to get me anywhere. Though it has to get me somewhere, I’m just not sure of the endpoint yet.

In terms of the rest of my life, I love plans. Sure, they can change, and that’s nice as well, but it’s nice to start by saying,
‘I was planning on doing this. Can we work around it?’
because then life has a nice and satisfying framework. Plans mean that life is more organised, and organisation is soothing because chance gets a lot less of a look-in.

Having said all of that, I’m only a fan of BIG PLANS. Like what to do during holidays, or where to live, or in general what I am doing at the weekend. This weekend for example, my plan is to go to Rabat. Not planning anything for while I’m there though, because it’s those small fun moments in the middle of BIG PLANS which are the best moments. You can’t have them without the BIG PLANS but they’re not constricted by them either.

And that is why I like plans.
And also unplanned events, like this

CHUCK NORRIS!!

Grand Menage

Been meaning to write this all day.

So today we cleaned my friends flat ready for the return of her flatmates. I hadn’t realised it was quite the state it was. Although it only took us about an hour, there were 4 of us on it, and it’s not exactly a big flat. I cleaned the bathroom, and I was scrubbing the bath for easily 20 minutes. Tide-marks are lovely. I was pleased with the end result.

In re-payment, we went for ridiculo-hotchocolate at La Villa. It is called Chocolat Chaud Fondue, which basically equates to melted chocolate in a mug. It’s so thick we normally have to eat it with a spoon. I had a ‘Verrine Citronelle’ as well, which is a tiny glass of lemon mousse. It was good.

Then I came home, which was a welcome change from hanging out at the flat, as I’ve been doing all weekend.  It’s always nice to get back to your own space again.

Girls Day Out

Know what’s awesome?

Having good friends to spend your time with. Last night I went out on a double ‘date’ with three of my girl mates over here. We shared salad and pizza, and then went to the very posh Maison Blanche for some cocktails. I had a £7 Tom Collins, but it was good.

Today we had breakfast together, and then went down to the old Medina. After a walk around there which was very relaxing we went and discovered the palace gardens, which are stunning. Then we headed back to the Ville Nouvelle for a potato sandwich (don’t doubt me, it’s good) and some ice-cream. I can’t think of a better snack than a ball of mixed flavours of ice-cream. Especially for 20p. Amazing.

Tonight we’re gonna have a film night. It will be totally awesome. I love having friends.

The Guilt Trap

Who among you gets caught in the guilt trap? I know I do.

Confused?

Well, let me explain…

The Guilt Trap
 
The guilt trap is simple. It comes when you’re angry or annoyed or disappointed in someone, and then you feel guilty for feeling that way because you know without a doubt that it can’t be their fault.
But…
You still feel angry/annoyed/disappointed, because that person still has let you down, whether they meant to or not, and you know you have every right to feel a bit off until they explain themselves.
But…
Then you think, but why should they have to explain themselves? They will have a good reason and you know that so why do you need the closure of hearing the explanation? So you feel guilty for wanting to ask.
But….
You can’t hide your feelings from this person, and so eventually you have to come out with how they made you  angry/annoyed you/disappointed you and then you feel guilty for being mean to them over nothing (it’s always nothing really)
But…
The person does have a genuine reason (of course) and often it’s something which you need to be sympathetic to, rather than being angry. So then they feel angry/annoyed/disappointed in you. And you feel guilty for making them feel bad.
It’s very hard to avoid the guilt trap, because as I’ve explained, you keep feeling bad about the subject until you’ve told that person, at which point the guilt doubles because you should have known they’d have a good reason and you shouldn’t have doubted them, and anyway, you know it’s something stupid that you have no good cause to be angry about. BUT there is still no way of not bringing it up with that person because otherwise it eats away at you and forces resent, which is something you always want to avoid. So even though getting caught in the trap isn’t fun, it’s pretty necessary.

Jump in my car

In the kindest way possible, Madame Halima can’t drive.

Ok, that’s a little harsh. But she tends to not use her higher gears, and her steering wheel in the same way that a three year old might use a plastic one. It’s all a little haphazard.

In some ways I feel that I am being mean to judge someone else’s driving, because although I’m not a bad driver, it did take me a while to pass my driving test. And even now, 2 years on, I’m still a little scared on the road. so much of driving is the confidence to know that you’re doing it right, and I just don’t have that. I’m lucky that The Boy is such a good driver, so I don’t need to worry about it.

In other news, it’s still very cold here.

And, I went to try on my Caftan. It’s only in the very first stages, and will take until the end of the month to fully finish, but I have some photos so you can tell me what you think. It cost a pretty penny, but I think it’s beautiful, and it’s very soft to wear.

I’d love to show you a photo, but unfortunately I am not being allowed to upload. Something about a server error. Silly old technology.